my new life as a working mom

So...it's been awhile since I last blogged. Let me tell you...I do not know what we did with our time before June. Now that I am back to work I feel like I am constantly on the go...and by the time Juner is asleep I have already been ready to "hit the hay" for hours.

I went back to work on July 11th. It was the worst morning ever! I woke up and cried, i got in the shower and cried, I fed June her ba (bottle) and cried, and while i was feeding her she was all smiles and giggles and it made me cry more. Doug calls it separation anxiety, I call it missing her like crazy. Everyone says that first day is the worst and that it does get better everyday after that. I agree, for the most part...that first day was the worst, thankfully we have a wonderful daycare provider that eased my first day back jitters by sending me text message updates throughout the day. It was nice to have those updates, but 5 o'clock could not come fast enough! Now it seems like my days now are like "groundhog day"...i miss her even before Doug leaves to bring her to daycare, i go to work, miss her, watch the clock, miss her and when that clock hits Leavin' time i am out the door! After i pick her up and we are home, i don't wanna put her down..and before you know it, it is time for bed and it all starts over. I know that once i get used to it it won't be that bad, and some have even told me that they look forward to that "adult time" at work. One wonderful thing i am more than ecstatic about is that my boss is letting me work more hours Monday - Thursday and have Fridays off! I am so excited about this, thank goodness he is a great guy and understands why i want more time with June. I don't think anyone fully understands what a child does to your life until they have one of their own...they totally change everything..the way you spend your extra time(that is non-existent), the fact that you can't get out of the house nearly as quick anymore, your grocery trips are well planned and as quick as possible.....but beyond all of that, it's literally like someone flipped a light switch in me when Juner was born and I love her so much and can't get enough of that sweet little face, she can switch your not so great day to...rainbows and butterflies like it's her job!

Anyway, being a working mom is challenging. Trying to balance June, work, housework, Doug & me...and just me...there is not enough time in the day for all....who needs sleep...right!?